You wonder where you're heading next.

Just learnt that cherie dear is working for Canon at the PC show later!
Will drop by there later , i miss herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :(

Im all in tears now, thanks to the fucking mother who think $469 is fucking expensive to her and keeps having second thoughts about getting me that.
Fuck her. $469 is soooo cheap for a Canon please! Fuckess.
And the sweetest brother bought me oreo bubbletea to calm me down, I hate oreo. I hate anything chocolate related.
I've never liked chocolate. Only white ones.
But thanks bro! If you ever chance upon this, Big sister is thanking you on her blog ah. No mood to talk now, but seriously, thanks :)

No matter what, i must get that fucking camera in my hands. I want that. You can fucking call me a spoilt brat, I dont mother fucking care. Its my fucking birthday, why cant you just grant me whatever i wish for my birthday?
Isit wrong to be happy for once a year ?
A camera just for my birthday, I didnt ask for Gucci or LVs because I just dont fancy that.
I dont need labels. I dont fucking care if people judge me with/without labels.
I dont need to show off. I'm not some fucking stuck up arrogant bitch.

I just can't understand why ive got a 'mother' like you. You make it sound as if I am fucking useless and I cant/wont support you in your fucking old age.
Just you wait, I will fucking throw money in your fucking face.
& then you said, "My birthday I dont see you getting things I want."
Is this how you fucking tell your daughter?
You refuse to let me work because you think I dont need extra allowance because you can give me more.

Dont fucking forget what did I get you on your birthday, although it doesnt even reach the costs of my camera.
You set your sights on a pair of cross diamond earrings, I fucking scrimped and saved so much just to get you that.
Bought you durian pancakes because you loved durians.
Bought you hotpink and red roses with small purple flowers just to make you smile because i know all mothers/women will smile when they see pretty flowers.

I did not work at that time, but every allowance you gave me, I only spend $8 for 5 days for school. = $8 divided by 5 days.
And I saved everything else, just to try make everything perfect for your birthday.

& now you say I am fucking unreasonable, asking for a camera.
I dont expect you to surprise me and pop up in my face with the camera i want. That is perfect, but i dont think you'll go to that extent.
I dont ask for birthday cakes because I dont need cakes.
I am different from every other birthday girl.
I dont need to throw a chalet/party for my birthday.
I dont need birthday cakes. All I want is to spend my big day with the ones I love.
That is sooo fucking satisfied to me.

I dont need 10 / 100 / 1000 presents to make me the happiest girl for the day.
Just 1 small thing can make me smile for the whole day. Just 1.
People wishing me 'Happy Birthday' is enough, at least they made an effort to remember my birthday. That is the happiest thing.

Side track, I've rant enough and its really enough. I should have my limits, she IS , afterall, my mother.
Gonna rain soon, doubt will be getting my camera already.

This sucks. Everything sucks.

Where're you when I needed you sunshine.. This feeling awfully sucks big time.


Photos from yesterday.
Meridian > Haji > Kallang > Home at 6am.