Lost for words,

Time for another update.
Many happenings today.
OH I HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH !

You see me blogging right now, because the weather's so cooling after a big long rain.
I always loved such weathers.

Anyway, I was called out by the counsellor.
I was surprised cause I knew that it couldn't have been my attire.
It was no problem.
So I just followed her into the room.
And she spoke to me, that there's a case..
That was so last year man! Fucking bitch.

And she forced me to recall what happened or else I'll get into serious shit.
Then she revealed another name, I won't reveal here. Concerns people's privacy.

I was damn turned off man.
She let me go, and said that she'll find me tomorrow.
So I called that bitch who spilled the beans to the counsellor and VP.
And she said that she wasn't the one who made the * .
So I said, "ok fine.
But it was so last year's, did you really have to rake it all up ?"
So I am really pissed then.
I'll be waiting for her call man, she did not only got me into trouble.
Some others are purely innocent.

Started to rain like nobody's business.
Waited for him to finish his personal training. So I killed time by ranting and cursing that bitch la.

I ranted at Adeline, heh.
But she really made me laugh quite abit. Ha!

Then he finally finished.
But it was still raining.
But it didnt affected us.
So had a very long chat with him, plus walking around the school.
Then went to see him having ssp.

While I played with school hammies!
HEHEHEEHEHE. I love little fat tiny fuzzy balls.
HEH!
It's so cute cute cute can!
Omg.

Decompose there until it was drizzling.
Yupyup, he accompanied me at the bus stop until my bus came and he went home.

Then the most depressing thing happened.
I saw him.
The feeling I'm feeling right then and right now, is the title of this post.
I turned my head, & I refuse to look at you.
I was afraid it'll be awkward, staring at each other..
But will you ever know that I was looking at you all the time when you walked off?
I was so disappointed I didnt get to see your face, all I ever saw was your back.

And that will always be what I see.
You turned your back on me when I needed you the most.
I just dont wish to remember anything about you anymore.
It's really time to move on.
If the old one never go, the new one would never arrive.
It's no point clinging onto this part.
I will treat you as a stranger.
Nothing else.

Time to be fair to people around me.
I should only give my trust to people who deserves it.


p/s ; I tried and tried to find reasons to tell myself that it's worth the wait, but to no avail.